The Spirit of Things

April 4, 2010 at 11:40 am (The Spirit of Things) (, , )

A Matter of Faith:

It is Spring.  All around us, there are the signs of a world in regeneration–a coming alive of all things after the winter waiting time, a resurrection of all that lay in slumber during the dying time.  We feel it too.  Our awareness and experience of this rebirth varies from person to person, yet the need to feel connected to the process, to the coming alive within and without, is present in all of us.  We reach into the dirt, cultivate and plant. Or, we buy cut flowers.  We tend our yards.  We go to the park and walk. Or, we pull the motorcycles–or bicycles, or both–out of the winter storage and we ride.  We open our windows.  We sit on the porch and drink in the growing sun, the blooming around us, the birds and squirrels and, yes, the rabbits.  Whatever we do, we are on some level aware that the change has come, that we too are waking and are renewed.

This is an ancient process–the basis of all ancient religions that celebrate a way of life based upon the belief that all things are connected, that we and the earth, its cycles and processes, are essentially tied to one another in an endless turning of generation, birth, death, regeneration and rebirth.  It is no accident that the believed resurrection of the Christ occurs in the Spring.  It is all literal, metaphoric, allegoric and psychologically powerful stuff.  No matter what else is happening in our lives, most all of us feel the instinctive, subconscious pull of the process of rebirth.  We feel lighter, more energized and tend to be better able to cope with and move through the other things in our daily lives in the presence of all that is Spring.  For many people, this is the basis of their faith.  It is for me as well, but not in the conventional ways you might expect.

Without getting too involved, let me say that my concept of God is…well…nearly heretical in the eyes of some.  No doubt there will be more about that as I write here.  But for now, I will simply say that my view of God is bigger than dogma, religion, or the common anthropomorphic ideas of God.  My view of God is living and breathing and rooted in physics, the commonalities of all religions, the cycles and processes of the universe around us, and some basic universal truths about the human experience.  And, it is rooted in my personal experience. Things others would view as synchronicity, serendipity or plain old happenstance.  My experience of God changes as I change.  While I do not believe in the currently popular view of God as some puppet-like magician simply waiting to give us whatever we ask for, I do believe that God moves in our lives.  Within us.  In cocreativity with us.  I am panentheistic.  And, I believe the action is internal.  I also believe that what we think about and turn our mental energy to, we manifest.

These are things that have come up in discussion of late between my friends and I, and between Scin and I.  People wonder how I can continue to have faith that all will be well, that forces are moving around and within us, that God is active, and that more will be revealed when I am dealing with such difficult circumstances.  As are the people close to me.  People ask:  how can you believe that a loving God is taking care of you when you have been job-hunting for over two years, your health concerns are unresolved, your mom’s house still has not sold, and the things you need do not seem to be appearing?  These observations are correct.  There has been struggle and uncertainty.  In addition, Scin and I are struggling with significant circumstances:  financial concerns, securing housing for them so they can move, difficulties related to being apart–for now–and trying to plan, while also trying to keep faith that somehow all will be well.  Struggle abounds.

So, my response to all of this is simple, really.  My entire life has provided me with examples of the care I receive from a benevolent universe and an active, present power greater than myself.  Greater than our conceptions.  Greater than doctrines.  If I look back on events that at first seem to be bad, not what I thought I needed or, for that matter, wanted, I can see how I was saved from something worse by things not going as I thought they should.  I can see how events were unfolding in ways that led to other things, that were better in the long run, that–once more was revealed–carried greater gifts for me than what I expected.  Also, good things happen every day.  My reunion with Scin is an example.

This, to me, is the action of God in communion and cocreation with us.  This, to me, is like the metaphor of Spring.  All seems dark, dead and stagnant until Spring comes and we see that things were at work, doing wonderous things, unseen and in their own time.  Spring is the point in the year when what was unseen becomes revealed.  Much of the action in our lives is this way:  internal, unseen, connected to other forces and processes, and is obvious only at the moment of its flowering.

Now, you could say that what you have read here is simply the expression of the obvious influence of perspective, of how one chooses to view things over which one has no control and how one mentally processes events and daily life.  And, to that I exclaim a resounding: yes; you are correct.  And, isn’t that what faith is–belief without tangible evidence, conviction without immediate proof, a set of beliefs to which one is committed, a mindset?  The issue is not simply the mindset, but how one comes to have this perspective and to be committed to it.  Experience, in conjunction with willingness to examine and interpret the experience, is the origin of the mindset.  I believe we are, indeed, transformed by the renewing of our minds (Romans 12:2).  By the way, this kind of thinking–as some of you know–is the basis of Eastern traditions, Pagan traditions, and, interestingly, behavioral science and the majority of physics.  In fact, there is a vast compilation of science to suggest that “mindset” or expectation–that is thought–is a physical force.  So, perhaps, faith is not conviction without evidence.

For example, if we study light as particles, that is how it behaves; if we study it as waves, that, too, is how it behaves.  Expectation, or the perspective of the experimenter, influences the thing being studied.  Thus, how we view our lives influences the unfolding of our lives.  Similarly, how we view God, or view our spirituality, determines how we experience our spiritual selves and our lives.  This perspective, like Spring, is a turning–a shifting of our view, an expectation from which is birthed the evidence. 

So, yes.  I have faith the things are going to be, both, as they should be in the scheme of things, and OK as well.  I believe that I will continue to have what I need, if not always what I want.  I believe that, like the bulbs that were lying in wait, there will be important gifts and growth in my struggles.  I believe that this time of uncertainty carries within it the seeds of the new, as yet unseen, budding of myself, others and our lives.  I believe that Scin and I will have the things we need to build our lives together.  I believe our reunion and the growing thing that is our relationship is a gift.  I receive it gladly.  I believe that things move and unfold in our lives in ways that work toward what is suitable to our individual selves and provides us with opportunities for our best interest.  And, I believe more will be revealed.

Finally, I believe that my role in my spiritual walk is simple.  It is mine to do what is in front of me, to tend to what I can and take responsibility for my choices, actions and my life.  It is also mine to tend the garden of my thinking–to be mindful of my life, my thoughts and perspectives, my actions and my participation in my relationships to my spiritual self, others, and my God.  It is mine to tend to the turning of my sight.  It is also mine to view myself as a valuable and to believe in myself as I am and as I am becoming.  If I believe that God is in all things and all things are in God, then God is in me as well and I need to trust the tools, talents, and abilities I have been given–and trust they have purpose.  I view others in the same way.  We are all connected, all part of the spirit of things.  We are all waking, slumbering, and waking again.  Each day, we are all being reborn, resurrected.  It is Spring, eternal.  That is enough for me.

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4 Comments

  1. Scintillectual said,

    Sweetheart, what a wonderful post for Easter Sunday. I am, as ever, in awe of your perspective of God (the creator, the higher power, the universal force) and how you are taken care of in some way or another. While I struggle and become depressed and angry with my God, you find amazing ways to explain why things that should have happened have not yet. For instance, the realization that if you had found a job you would not have been able to resolve your health issues without significant copays and incurring a lot of time off early in a new position. This way, your health comes first, resolution takes place there, and then, I am certain, the right job is there for you. I know that I have been wretched all week and I apologize. It’s been hard to shake the funk off my skin. I have wallowed and been certain that nothing will be well. Yet you persist in knowing that all will be well and soon we shall all be together and our lives will come into full fruition. Your Faith feeds what little I have—but I’m trying hard to reconnect. May I say…your spiritual nature is just yet another facet of you that makes you utterly swoon-worthy in my eyes. I love you and will call you soon. *sweet, soft kisses upon your lips*

    • androgynonamous said,

      Sweet, love of my life…I appreciate your faith in me, in my faith, and in us. I am, actually, in awe of your faith as well: what you do not realize is that you already have all you need; you strive to reconnect which means you are still in relationship, are still engaged, and participating. The faithless do not stay engaged. Truth is, we have to be involved and participating in any relationship in order to become emotional about it all–to be angry with God, to stuggle to reconnect, is to still be engaged. You have faith God is present and involved with you or you would not continue to seek a deeper connection. You will get to the place you wish to be; it will come, largely, because you are practically there already. Your willingness to walk your walk, to face your daily struggles and not give up astounds me. I have faith in you. Always. Your love and belief in me strengthen me. We will have what we need and our lives will come to full fruition. *gentle, trailing kisses at the back of your neck* to say I love you and long for your voice in my ear.

  2. Blazer said,

    It is very interesting to read about your view of God and details of your beliefs and faith. It is unfortunate that the idea of God has been usurped by religions. My own experience with the church of my upbringing has, I admit, left a sour taste in my mouth when it comes to any talk of God. I will freely admit that I usually simply tune out whenever a conversation turns to religion. That said, I read and reread this, in part because I have grown to respect your knowledge and insight but also because we seem to share so many similar experiences. And while I was typing this the earth literally shook (and omen good or bad I don’t know). Be well friend.

    • androgynonamous said,

      I am touched, deeply, by the fact that you not only read this, but read it more than once. I know that it is not a typical thing for you. Glad you read this! Your input, as you know, means a lot to me. I do believe we have had many similar experiences. I respect you and your views as well…and look forward to them.

      I too, share your sadness that God has been usurped by Religion. There is a reason [often misunderstood] why Nietzsche said “God is dead and we killed him.” I honestly believe that what “the Church” [in the south] did to me would have ruined me forever if I had not just gotten pissed and started reading: other religious texts, theology, comparitive religion, history, etc. I am often sad for those who have had Religion rob them of their innate spirituality. Our spiritual nature is ours, born in us, wired in our brains and mixed in our chemistry; it lives in the core of us. Religion, however, is man made and too often crushes the spirit. I understand your bad taste. I mourn it for you. I say this largely because I have come to see your spirit and it is good. It walks before you and it is kind. I am not at all surprised the earth shook. Wellness and peace to you, as well, friend.

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